i don't know where to put this feelings. i'm so fed up. i don't know what else to do. i don't even know to whom am i suppose to cry. fuck.

i've been inlove with this person for so long then suddenly, he started to give hints, finally. so there i was, head over heels. i've been telling it to
my friends and kinikilig ako ng sobra syempre. i even asked my bestfriend to make him her textmate so that infos will flow easily. then all of a sudden. huminto na ulit. wala parang friends na naman. deadma ulit. fuck. yea he's texting but i don't care. it doesn't even make sense to me. i don't know. feels like he has "somebody". then i started to panic. i dunno why but it's just that i felt like doing so. so i asked my bestfriend if he's still texting her and what's their topics. no answers. just smiles. fuck. di ako lalo mapakali. mei tinatago sila. so my other friend started to open up. she had my bestfriend's fone and let
me read the messages of this freakin' guy. it was him. okay i was nearly terrified when i saw the messages. here's how it goes: "mei bf ka na ba? / pwede ba malaman kung sino ex mo? / ang ganda mo nga ee nakakainlove ka. / magkikita naman tayo bukas eh. / basta dito lang ako lagi pag keilangan mo." i dunno how to react in front of her! of course i won't freak out. but yea, i can't take what i've read no more so umuwi na lang ako. tangina masakit pala, sobra. it hurts even more for she's my bestfriend for god's sake! we've known each other for so many damn years. i dunno if my reaction was right but i dunno what to do. i don't even have the guts to cry. i'm scared. i don't know. call me a loser, pathetic, stupid, idiot, coward or whatever, i don't care. i feel so bad. i feel so useless. i'm pathetic. we're not even a girlfriend/boyfriend material but i'm reacting like this. i don't even know if my reactions are okay. or i'm just so O.A.
i guess i'm just reacting a bit over. i don't know. putang ina. yun na lang muna.

"Don't Mess With My Love"

I thought you were a friend of mine but I was wrong
You tried to fit into the arms where I belong
You moved right in behind my back
Everyone knows friends don't do that

I thought you were somebody I could trust
You always said you were happy for us
How could you go and break my heart?
When you knew all along he was mine from the start

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

You came right over and looked in my eyes
You said the stories were rumors and lies
And I wish I could believe in you
But I'm sorry to say he told me the truth

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

[BRIDGE]
Friends don't do what you do
There's no excuse
I'm so confused
I thought you cared about me
But now I see
All you care about is you

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

on the music
start the party
im coming right down
to boogie on the dance floor
it's time to rock 'n' roll







Nica \m/
**15 years old
**3rd year high school
**Music lover
**Band addict
**Can switch from one genre of music to another
**Poetic and Ambitious :D


"I'm not materialistic, I'm ambitious.."



**God
**Family
**Friends
**MUSIC!!
**Punk and Rock (but any genre would do)
**Goth and Rebels (a bit)
**Guitars
**Indie Bands
**Composing Songs
**Black and Hot Pink
**Gigs and Concerts
**Books
**Coffee
*Shopping
*Fashion
*Cam Whoring
*Movies
*The O.C.
*Surfing the Net
*Blogging



*Plastics
*Failing tests
*Nags
*Backstabbers
*Posers
*Mean
*ATHEIST :(


**new black electric guitar
**new acoustic guitar
*new iPod Video 30GB
*drums for my couz
**callalily album launch
**urbandub's "embrace" album
*sitti's "cafe bossa" album
**iriver H10
**DSL! yeaboi!
*revamped friendster account
*school basketball varsity (oyea!)
*revamped blog
*reformatted p.c
*hale's "twilight"






Airisa
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Natzuki
Paola
Raize
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Robert
Eka
Gh
Tangkie
Patt
Yvetskie
Bianca Gonzalez
Ala Paredes
Paula Peralejo
Edrelyn
Phen
Pattiness
Maggie


**Friendster account
*Picture Trail

Email her: mnica_30@yahoo.com





"Take Me Away"
- Christina Vidal





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