time to rock 'n' roll

Saturday, May 20, 2006

why are you so elusive? that i can't even help myself being in a pretentious bliss. damn it, i feel so stupid.

the girl scribbled at
7:46 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

There is this person that annoys me. why? just because i hate his voice. how he acts. how he sings. how he performs onstage. how he talks. so many darn hows. but everytime i hear his voice singing, and the strumming of that stupid electric guitar, my shivering always starts. i don't know if he is getting into my nerve because of that distracting falsetto voice, or it means something. something deeper that i would someday regret, i don't know if i should be sorry or be happy about.

We're not talking that much now. i only had the chance when he got online and when i texted him. not in person. and that makes me look freakishly pathetic. too bad for me. i don't text him that much for i might look so paranoid, which i already am. there are 3 things that give space between us. first, our age. he is 9 years older than me and that would make our pair as if brother and sister thingy. i'm not taking this as a very big hindrance for i know so many married people 12, 10, 7 years age gap. so hope still sparks. second, he has a girlfriend. i don't take this seriously too. they're not yet married right? and lastly, the biggest and hardest of them all that separates me apart from him is, limelight. fame is such a big hindrance. and mind you, he is not mr. lui pio okay? he is someone not that famous but i really look up to him or maybe even feel for. i know i am. and he totally rocks that whenever we're chatting and texting, i can feel the redness in my face. i don't know why. maybe because i'm dreaming about this person to be mine but when everything seems to be so perfect, my insecurities and frustrations occur. i'm a big big mess in this darn huge world. he is too good for me.

And i can't even imagine the worst thing that may happen. and to top that, it already happened. it was that night i was about to sleep and i popped the c.d. of his band and listened to this particular song. i didn't realized that there were tears streaming down my cheeks until suddenly, all i thought about is him. and i knew that missed him damnly much.

Nobody knows this. not a single soul. i'm even afraid that my sister will soon find out, open my blog and blab it to me with filth. but it's okay. i'm the only person that knows the real me. and i know that i'm only living in a dream. dreams they haunt me back. this line fits to me so good. so what do you think, is this love or just infatuation?

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12:46 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

i love this poem. got it from "chicken soup for teenage soul" i just finished typing it but it was well worth it.

"Smile"
She smiled at a sorrowful stranger.
The smile seemed to make him feel better.
He remembered past kindness of a friend
And wrote him a thank-you letter.
The friend was so pleased with the thank-you
That he left a large tip after lunch.
The waitress, surprised by the size of the tip,
bet the whole thing on a hunch.
The next day she picked up her winnings,
And gave part to a man on the street.
The man on the street was grateful;
For two days he'd had nothing to eat.
After he finished his dinner,
he left for his small dingy room.
(He didn't know at that moment
that he might be facing his doom.)
On the way he picked up a shivering puppy
and took him home to get warm.
The puppy was very grateful
to be in out of the storm.
That night the house caught fire.
The puppy barked the alarm.
He barked 'til he woke the whole household
and saved everybody from harm.
One of the boys that he rescued
grew up to be President.
All this because of a simple smile
that hadn't cost a cent.

the girl scribbled at
7:52 PM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

ian, my very first pamangkin(from my cousin ate jenny) will finally be staying here with us, well.. yay! wala lang, err.. here's a very goofy pic with me, yusuke and him

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4:26 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

duh! what is wrong with my mom?! i wanna go there and live a life! there's nothing wrong if we'll migrate there.. argh!!!!! new zealand, i love cows and there's nothing wrong with that! lol

okay, i was really grossed with what marissa did. read tonight's episode:

3.01 - "The Aftermath" - Sept. 8, 2005

Summer is coming to an end and school is starting in a few days. Trey has been in a coma since Marissa shot him. The D.A. has waited as long as possible for Trey to wake up but people are starting to demand answers and justice, which is why D.A. Chris Caldwell was asked to dig around and take more depositions from Ryan, Seth and Marissa amongst others. Will either Marissa or Ryan pay the price? Or will both be prosecuted? Kirsten is still at the rehab center. Julie is mad because Caleb’s accountant says it will take months before the will can be read. Summer, Sandy and Jimmy also appear.

err, d'you think it's right that she shooted trey? ugh, i don't think so.. check out the site http://www.theocshow.com/ you'll be able to read the episodes of the o.c series..

oh well, i think the oc and the cast ohhh so rocks!!

the girl scribbled at
8:09 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

i'll call it a bad day. err.. geez i guess i was just over reacting! we've been to (insert the name of the place, memory gap. lol) and there is this particular uhh.. overpopulated and dirty spot we've been to.. (sorry i think i'm showing the evil side of me) but honestly, i hate the place. is it because i am a loner that i hate overP places? ugh, not that. so instead of pissing myself with those uncertainties, i just took a pic of mine that will show that i'm not only ugly but also fat and has a very poor complexion. lol. so here, i wanna present you the sun kissed beybeh!

waaaah gadamit i hate my color! thanx to the pool, the sun, and the sunblock! great help! i wish i can erase my skin.. lol. argh!!

well, i'm lovin' "ms. hilton" by the penfifteen club. cool cool dudes.. lalalala..

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6:31 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

i can't post everyday even if i wanted to.. err.. but honestly, i..... am..... sporting....... a..... diary...... *sigh* ugh! hehe kidding.. well not really a diary but a journal (duh what's the difference? lolz) it's just that i love taking down notes.. lol.. okay, just this morning i'm trying my l.j.. but darn it! so user unfriendly! or maybe it is just that i dunno how to use that site.. poor me! and who the hell?!?! there is this person tryin' to pig out with me! YOU SHABBY SHABBY POOR IDIOT! DON'T MESS WITH ME! OR YOU'LL SEE WHAT YOU'RE REALLY LOOKING FOR! *grrr!!!* good thing i'm in good mood..

ahhh i won't worry my life away! -jason mraz

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4:57 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

just had my subdomain in blackeyedpeas' web! hehe im not into that groupee but i love apl.de.ap just because of this reason, "he is a filipino and proud to be one" cool dba? argh so proud!

lolz..

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6:47 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

just came home from swimming.. i'm wierd, i admit.. it runs through the blood.. know what, this morning mom, ate and i are just chatting then my mom suddenly announced, "tara swimming!" si ate nman, "cge! impake naq?!" then i was like "huh?!?!"

labo.. biglaan! haha.. so kme nman "sure!!" haha..

here are the pictures! (click here!) lotsa fun! har!

the girl scribbled at
7:56 PM