There is this person that annoys me. why? just because i hate his voice. how he acts. how he sings. how he performs onstage. how he talks. so many darn hows. but everytime i hear his voice singing, and the strumming of that stupid electric guitar, my shivering always starts. i don't know if he is getting into my nerve because of that distracting falsetto voice, or it means something. something deeper that i would someday regret, i don't know if i should be sorry or be happy about.


We're not talking that much now. i only had the chance when he got online and when i texted him. not in person. and that makes me look freakishly pathetic. too bad for me. i don't text him that much for i might look so paranoid, which i already am. there are 3 things that give space between us. first, our age. he is 9 years older than me and that would make our pair as if brother and sister thingy. i'm not taking this as a very big hindrance for i know so many married people 12, 10, 7 years age gap. so hope still sparks. second, he has a girlfriend. i don't take this seriously too. they're not yet married right? and lastly, the biggest and hardest of them all that separates me apart from him is, limelight. fame is such a big hindrance. and mind you, he is not mr. lui pio okay? he is someone not that famous but i really look up to him or maybe even feel for. i know i am. and he totally rocks that whenever we're chatting and texting, i can feel the redness in my face. i don't know why. maybe because i'm dreaming about this person to be mine but when everything seems to be so perfect, my insecurities and frustrations occur. i'm a big big mess in this darn huge world. he is too good for me.


And i can't even imagine the worst thing that may happen. and to top that, it already happened. it was that night i was about to sleep and i popped the c.d. of his band and listened to this particular song. i didn't realized that there were tears streaming down my cheeks until suddenly, all i thought about is him. and i knew that missed him damnly much.


Nobody knows this. not a single soul. i'm even afraid that my sister will soon find out, open my blog and blab it to me with filth. but it's okay. i'm the only person that knows the real me. and i know that i'm only living in a dream. dreams they haunt me back. this line fits to me so good. so what do you think, is this love or just infatuation?

on the music
start the party
im coming right down
to boogie on the dance floor
it's time to rock 'n' roll







Nica \m/
**15 years old
**3rd year high school
**Music lover
**Band addict
**Can switch from one genre of music to another
**Poetic and Ambitious :D


"I'm not materialistic, I'm ambitious.."



**God
**Family
**Friends
**MUSIC!!
**Punk and Rock (but any genre would do)
**Goth and Rebels (a bit)
**Guitars
**Indie Bands
**Composing Songs
**Black and Hot Pink
**Gigs and Concerts
**Books
**Coffee
*Shopping
*Fashion
*Cam Whoring
*Movies
*The O.C.
*Surfing the Net
*Blogging



*Plastics
*Failing tests
*Nags
*Backstabbers
*Posers
*Mean
*ATHEIST :(


**new black electric guitar
**new acoustic guitar
*new iPod Video 30GB
*drums for my couz
**callalily album launch
**urbandub's "embrace" album
*sitti's "cafe bossa" album
**iriver H10
**DSL! yeaboi!
*revamped friendster account
*school basketball varsity (oyea!)
*revamped blog
*reformatted p.c
*hale's "twilight"






Airisa
April
Chreesiih
Karj
Monique
Natzuki
Paola
Raize
Ryan
Robert
Eka
Gh
Tangkie
Patt
Yvetskie
Bianca Gonzalez
Ala Paredes
Paula Peralejo
Edrelyn
Phen
Pattiness
Maggie


**Friendster account
*Picture Trail

Email her: mnica_30@yahoo.com





"Take Me Away"
- Christina Vidal





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