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it's our sembreak. gadamit but i hate using our computer. yea we already are DSL but please, friendster and yahoo messanger was blocked.
okay how stupid was that. shit nakakainis naman! haaay!

i'm happy. but not so so so. but i'm happy, now. thank you earth.


*walang magawa ayoko kasi tumuloy sa kamikazee gig na gustong puntahan ng barkada ko ayan tambay sa harap ng p.c*


lol  
 

i don't know where to put this feelings. i'm so fed up. i don't know what else to do. i don't even know to whom am i suppose to cry. fuck.

i've been inlove with this person for so long then suddenly, he started to give hints, finally. so there i was, head over heels. i've been telling it to
my friends and kinikilig ako ng sobra syempre. i even asked my bestfriend to make him her textmate so that infos will flow easily. then all of a sudden. huminto na ulit. wala parang friends na naman. deadma ulit. fuck. yea he's texting but i don't care. it doesn't even make sense to me. i don't know. feels like he has "somebody". then i started to panic. i dunno why but it's just that i felt like doing so. so i asked my bestfriend if he's still texting her and what's their topics. no answers. just smiles. fuck. di ako lalo mapakali. mei tinatago sila. so my other friend started to open up. she had my bestfriend's fone and let
me read the messages of this freakin' guy. it was him. okay i was nearly terrified when i saw the messages. here's how it goes: "mei bf ka na ba? / pwede ba malaman kung sino ex mo? / ang ganda mo nga ee nakakainlove ka. / magkikita naman tayo bukas eh. / basta dito lang ako lagi pag keilangan mo." i dunno how to react in front of her! of course i won't freak out. but yea, i can't take what i've read no more so umuwi na lang ako. tangina masakit pala, sobra. it hurts even more for she's my bestfriend for god's sake! we've known each other for so many damn years. i dunno if my reaction was right but i dunno what to do. i don't even have the guts to cry. i'm scared. i don't know. call me a loser, pathetic, stupid, idiot, coward or whatever, i don't care. i feel so bad. i feel so useless. i'm pathetic. we're not even a girlfriend/boyfriend material but i'm reacting like this. i don't even know if my reactions are okay. or i'm just so O.A.
i guess i'm just reacting a bit over. i don't know. putang ina. yun na lang muna.

"Don't Mess With My Love"

I thought you were a friend of mine but I was wrong
You tried to fit into the arms where I belong
You moved right in behind my back
Everyone knows friends don't do that

I thought you were somebody I could trust
You always said you were happy for us
How could you go and break my heart?
When you knew all along he was mine from the start

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

You came right over and looked in my eyes
You said the stories were rumors and lies
And I wish I could believe in you
But I'm sorry to say he told me the truth

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

[BRIDGE]
Friends don't do what you do
There's no excuse
I'm so confused
I thought you cared about me
But now I see
All you care about is you

He is everything to me
And you know we're meant to be
He's my baby
Don't mess with my love
Take everything I own
Ooh just leave that boy alone
He's my baby
Don't mess with my
Mess with my love
Don't mess with my love

i'm confused. i dunno. i didn't even go to school today. better watch out now.
it's just that i feel soooo in between. damn it feels so bad too.
and oh, 1 more thing, he sucks. he so so sucks. why can't you just stop if it's
not for real?! shit.



 

just got hale's "twilight" album. the packaging was good. nice pics and arts. but to tell the truth, i don't seem to enjoy the songs
that much. i am a haler for God's sake! but to think, the songs don't seem to fit the guys.
they've been playing rock/melancholic songs but some songs now are mixed..
edited so much.. whatever. and yea i've told our maid "bat ganun parang si
geneva cruz lang un artist sa album na un dahil sa mga ibang kanta, iba un dating! parang edited na mixed na chuva.." anyway, there's nothing wrong but maybe naninibago lang ako.
don't get me wrong with this kind of review okie? i'm still a true blue haler and
i'm loving their song "hide and seek" oyea lovelots!

damn i'm so furious!!! today should be the day!! oh and how i hate everybody! the north gig! damn!!!! nangaasar ba talaga?! oh well that's fate.. but there's a silver lining in everything right? we'll be in moa gig and eastwood this october. but still, i'm so mad!!! so my CLVE project?! i'm doing it NO MORE! wala talaga ako sa mood! haaay! sorry joan and ate joy! hmm, see you in the next gigs. argh!!! hope you did say hi to kean and the guys for me. i'm so sad.

i thought he won't text me yesterday. and yea, he did. but 12:00a.m? kumusta naman yun? haha! oh well, i love that joke he sent me.haaay. la lang.
anyway, we'll be there tomorrow at s.m north edsa for callalily's mall tour.
better finish my project! ooooh! CLVE! God how i hate that org thingy!
love lots and godspeed!

yesterday was one of the greatest day for me and yana, i guess. at last, he
talked to me. and i even had the guts(just yesterday! for so long!) to text him.
thanks to God! haha! well i'm just so happy. and right now, i'm loving this song. OMG


am i inlove? lol. nothing more to say. mwah!

i don't know what to say. it has been months since the first time i saw you. but until now, you won't even bother to talk or even notice me. god damn it. i'm fuckin' confused! manhid ka! nakakapang-gigil! ewan bwiset ka! 

after two days of totally black out(or brown out.. whatever!) I REALLY DO and REALLY REALLY DO appreciate electricity na as in OH MY GOSH! the heck, it totally bummed the wits out of me! i dunno what else to do aside from playing the guitar, eating, playing board games, talking, lots of talking and even more more talking! we're really bored to death! i can't use my cellphone for it's lowbatt and mommy won't allow me to stay inside the car (shocks i just wanna charge my phone!) and i can't even stay inside my room for i'm so scared to even go upstairs (dude, i'm staying in 3rd floor okay? so there's a big big reason!) i missed MUSIC (i don't wanna waste the battery of my iriver. lol) and most of all, i miss the net!!!!!!!!!! haha! i'm addicted diba? but losing electricity that long also helped our family to bond, even more. and thanx to kuya ely because after 15 years of my life, now i can play chess! haha! woah! don't get me wrong, i really don't know how. nobody here at home knows how and my friends are so lazy to teach me. so now i'm so damn proud that i can. hehe kidding. anyway, we just got home. (yusuke, denden, mommy and i) we've gone to ortigas to give a ride for ate rhens and kuya ely. and oh, too bad for them they still need to go to work. hehe. but before dropping them by, we decided to eat first in mcdo. (woohoo i miss mcdo na! tagal na rin ung last kain namin doon) haaay! i guess two days really ate me so here i am, the ultimate drama queen! i took a pic and i also used it as my primary picture in friendster. kakulitan nga naman. hehe! 


and yea, i named this picture "drama queen lost in ortigas" lol haha! there there! i'm tired now. be safe and love lots!


PS: THIS ENTRY IS LATE. IT SHOULD BE POSTED LAST NIGHT BUT THE CONNECTION GOT CRAZY SO I DECIDED TO JUST POST IT TODAY. LOL 

i was not able to post for days! argh! anyway i got so sentimental with callalily this past days so i decided to make a poem for the band. *aww how thoughtful of me* lol. i even posted it in their y.g to see how the listers would react. hehe. here it is:


so what do you guys think? i think it's a bit mushy. well anyway it's just a poem composed out of bliss. haha! got to go now! damn, so many darn works to do! chemistry homework and geometry homework, done. but i still need to finish the oedipus play analysis and history homeworks!  loads and loads to do! mwah and be safe!

i forgot the exact date i last posted. anyway, so many things happened. it'll take me hours to just type it all here. so next time, i'll make it a point to get posted as soon as possible! heehee!

hmm, my last post was about the 6 cycle's gig right? it was a thud! ney was so cool! and so was tutti! the band was great! paraluman and protien shake too! but too bad i wasn't able to have a picture with them. plus, cellphones aren't allowed! grr! what a paranoid prefect! but thank God the concert was a blast! my bestfriend, shannen, way back in grade 6 made it and rocked the night with us. she's now in m.c school so we're not able to hang-out with her just like before. here is a pic of ours together with my bruhang bespren, cha. 

today was our general rehearsal for ndgm's foundation day. it was exhausting and at the same time, very stupid. paulit-ulit! but afternoon came, and oyea, it was a blast! vivo of starstruck 3 came. cute!!!

and spongecola came too! yael's approachable, cute, and all! haha! even chris and the whole band. luckily, cha, i and kimi got so darn LUCKY that we're the last batch of people they admitted to go see the guys inside the library before the performance. yael even gave me this leaflet before i go, asking us to be there tomorrow in ortigas for their album launch, sophomore album "transit".

too bad i can't make it tomorrow for it's 6cyclemind/protein shake/paraluman's concert in our school. the album launch of sponge cola is in ortigas. and callalily has a gig tomorrow in katipunan. what do you think i'll choose between 6 cycle and sponge? (for i can't make it in katipunan, i know.) of course 6cycle! i'll interview tutti, rye and ney about kean! haha! *asa pa ko* so, there. hope tomorrow will be a bash as well! be safe!

waaaaah! the one i posted earlier was deleted! damn ang haba pa nman nun! ulit na nman! haaay!

anyway, i couldn't get enough of kean edward cipriano!! he's soooo cute!! here's a picture of me with him. napakalapit! naputol tuloy! haha damn that zoom! but he is still uber-cute though. haha!

last night, i was scanning my iriver then i accidentally switched it to the radio tour kean and alden had in 97.1 wls fm which i recorded. so, i decided to listen to it once again. after 2 hours of listening and laugh trips, dj john hendrix asked the guys to share the listeners about their experiences with other famous people plus the inspirational words those people gave them. kean was the first one. he was like,

"always look up to other people. wag kayo magsasawa. kasi pag dumating yun time na you guys think that you're the best, dun kayo magsisimula bumagsak. thanks tutti ng 6 cycle mind! siya may sabi sakin nun!"

i mean, wow! it really do inspired me though. then it was alden's turn. alden said,

"grabe nabbrain freeze ako. uhm sakin naman, never think you're best. xe the second you think nga that you're the best, you suck."

the three guys all went silent. then alden said, "tama ba un?" john hendrix just laughed. kean was like asking alden with hesitation but at the same time mocking, "uhh.. that's nice?? ehee.." then all of them laughed. me too, but harder. hehe! you see, i'm just mababaw that's why. i guess this guys are so fun to be with. with sense of humor, mababait and cute! haha! oyea and they rock, that's it. hehe! \m/

oh well got to go now. i still have to study and do my homeworks in geometry, chemistry and social. argh! mwah be safe! ciao!

i wanna change everything. damn. i fuckin' hate my life!

i love sitti! the girl who sang "para sa akin". her voice is so soothing and sounds so sophisticated. feels like i'm in a coffee shop when i'm listening to her songs. i love listening to the her album cafe bosa when i'm just chillin' and playin' around in my room. i love her. i love her voice!

just revamped my blog. i don't like the colors for i want them to be black and pink but still, i think it's cute. do navigate and enjoy. but please try to leave comments and i want those destructive ones out of my page. right now may hang-over pa rin aq kei kean. hehe aun wala lang. anyway, try to watch wazzup wazzup studio 23 later for my sister's friend, ice, will be performing there later. maryzark band. so there! thanx, take care and godspeed!

OMG! i can't believe that i've finally met them last night! i was in front and kean even pointed me out. denden was the one who freaked out anyway haha! i mean it's really an OMG experience! i have pictures with them and i've got my album signed by all of them! waaah! hehe! i'm sooooo uber hyperNEEEEEESSS!!

here's a picture of me with tatsi. and oyea i also have pictures with kean, alden, lem and aaron! (and alden's 11yrs old brother too! haha so cute!) just check out my friendster acct for more pics!

haaaay. bored. o2jam later. ciao

just saw the movie "mortuary" together with my barkada yesterday. hey that movie sucks. no offense but it's more like "house of wax", but that wax movie is way better. grabe nsyang pera nmen! nerissa and i just finished the whole movie screaming all along though it's not really scary. hehe

" we still need to settle our pessimistic problem.. praise fate!"

no classes tomorrow and that rocks! but i still have to review for our exams this coming thursday, argh! i wanna go with my sis and mommy tommorrow and shop the day away for our upcoming baby paula stephanie. plus, i have to buy destination xyz! argh! aww too bad i can't. hope mommy would allow me.

yesterday something really funny, amazing and exciting happened. i was at my room, my cousins yusuke and denden were also there, playing harvest moon, then while holding my iriver, i suddenly freaked out and screamed, "bakit hanggang ngayon wala pa akong 'stars' by callalily!" so my cousins were like, "ewan namin sayo, bumili ka ng album o magrecord ka sa radio" so i turned on my iriver and started scanning the fms. (well i'm not really planning that time to look instantly okay!) and when i reached 99.5 rt, i couldn't believe it! really! haha! the band callalily was there(live!) and asking listeners to call the hotline and ask them whatever on earth you wanna ask! i was like OMG!!! finally here's my chance! not only the 'stars' song but i'll be able to talk to them too! so after 2 long hours and 5 longer rings without answering, on the 6th ring(and again it took them years to answer) i was there, hearing my voice on air and dj neil and the callalily guys were there saying hello to me! i was breathless that time and the speech i've been rehearsing for two hours was gone, just like that! mental-blocked! haha! funny, really. iba na un natanong ko sa mga dapat talagang itatanong ko! and kean and the guys invited me to be there on their album launch in metrobar west ave. i asked my mom if i can(of course my parents will be there too) and she said yes we can! haha denden and i was frantic that we'll be able to meet the guys at last! (denden my cousin, a bigger fan of callalily than me hehe) it'll be this august 30, 6:00 p.m. gosh i can't hardly wait! rock on callalistas! oyea i'm in love! haha!

right now, i am super crushing this two guys! especially kean! i guess this is not a good pic of tatsi but hey, he still is way too cool for me! haha! (tatsi-lead guitar/left, kean-vocalist/right)

why can't they just let me manage my own self? i'm not that stupid at all. gosh i'm so drama na naman! effect of not blogging for almost a month? haha i guess i just missed blogging so much. things happen as time passes, quick. oh, i was thinking, should i make another blog for i think this one is so messy! hehe. got to go, i have to edit my 'my space' acct. mwah!

DARN! i just so hate fu***n' blabbermouthed biat***s! telling everybody about my secrets! haven't i guys told you that what you've read here, stays here?! fu** i mean it! i'm really mad! don't worry i like him no more! it's just that down there, it is stated that HE IS ONLY CUTE. PERIOD! damn damn!

i'm so dying to send this to him: lol. oyea i'm just kidding. haha

it's not healthy for me to feel this way.. hala lss naq kei rihanna! haha

Now, when is he going to start talking to me? LOL

last wednesday, june 14, 2006 was our first day of class. first day of being 3rd year and everything. and i belong to 3- st. gabriel. oyea! i've been wanting to be in that section since march for i know i won't be able to enter the cream class. my freaky grades. but i'll do my best now. i'll try, haha! and oh! gosh gosh gosh gosh! rafael.. raphael (whatever) luiz.. luis.. (whichever!) bunyi! shockz! new classmate, a transferee and darn he is so cute! haha! came from cal sci school so it means he is intelligent. huwaw looks and brains! OMG! haha. well have to sleep now i still have classes tomorrow. mwah!

on the music
start the party
im coming right down
to boogie on the dance floor
it's time to rock 'n' roll







Nica \m/
**15 years old
**3rd year high school
**Music lover
**Band addict
**Can switch from one genre of music to another
**Poetic and Ambitious :D


"I'm not materialistic, I'm ambitious.."



**God
**Family
**Friends
**MUSIC!!
**Punk and Rock (but any genre would do)
**Goth and Rebels (a bit)
**Guitars
**Indie Bands
**Composing Songs
**Black and Hot Pink
**Gigs and Concerts
**Books
**Coffee
*Shopping
*Fashion
*Cam Whoring
*Movies
*The O.C.
*Surfing the Net
*Blogging



*Plastics
*Failing tests
*Nags
*Backstabbers
*Posers
*Mean
*ATHEIST :(


**new black electric guitar
**new acoustic guitar
*new iPod Video 30GB
*drums for my couz
**callalily album launch
**urbandub's "embrace" album
*sitti's "cafe bossa" album
**iriver H10
**DSL! yeaboi!
*revamped friendster account
*school basketball varsity (oyea!)
*revamped blog
*reformatted p.c
*hale's "twilight"






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Chreesiih
Karj
Monique
Natzuki
Paola
Raize
Ryan
Robert
Eka
Gh
Tangkie
Patt
Yvetskie
Bianca Gonzalez
Ala Paredes
Paula Peralejo
Edrelyn
Phen
Pattiness
Maggie


**Friendster account
*Picture Trail

Email her: mnica_30@yahoo.com





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- Christina Vidal





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